blake uptin

 so you need a ghost writer and more there's books on shelves that no one will ever read and then there's some people who get filthy rich from however that is paid for um so the scifi attempt scratched out in here there's dc encrypted into a drug addled brain cocaine in the brain marijuana in the blood stream but so it's the races dynamic the blacks conglomerating and gathering in a the capital of the us the masonic style national federal states confederates rebels unions northerners southerners midwest the waterfront of the map the shore line the boaters and seamen the navies of earth and the ships in the sky jets deja vu planes passengers and airborne certified humans work dogs and pets the avian and then other parts french bourgeois the royalty the native american indians different differences divisive divisions or blended um body markings celebs incoming in a montage trailer the summary the liner notes the book jacket of this with substories branching off the editor...

 so tuesday afternoon pack up my travel bag business pants work shirts prescription meds mini sketchbook dog's hamburger where i left off with henry miller book um underwear so wednesday morning the drive through to alexandria this whole trip having lots of nice meals throughout pizza pho greek burgers korean american chicken so get to the office and at the office log into the computer um which account to create creatively with the blogger tumblr livejournal previously collecting video clips to put to youtube and tiktok so being a writer jot down a note on my smartphone to type up later a reminder of material so there's time between each meal lunch dinner the second floor suite with the same routines wake up so staying at my parents house the nights charge my phone skim some youtube ideas read my paperback and previous mention of visuals for that the stooges the orwells the evening there walk the suburbs to see my older brother his house where i used to be next door neighbors t...

 so what's worth investing in or repeating over again (even too what's worth quitting and stopping what to cut off) um maybe cheap meals parents home cooking together with family occasional restaurant frequency the fresh stomach for hot food so rationalizing about the budget is some of it somewhat pointless (the food doesn't do much you eat it and go to the bathroom then other stuff buying things to study or practice art supplies music equipment or even furnishings the showmanship but then again not developing a eating disorder) and what is the best choices  what buzzes to do what thrills to have remembering how great the 7 eleven was the nacho cheese the chili big bite taquito wings sugar in cookies a pop a soda coke um but then savings from like not being near anywhere close to the cigs anymore and that whole platform from there marijuana and that what's sold as  how much taco bell is enough the little stimulus in the brain what's more important and thinking of ot...

 so there's like this many people you'd meet while getting into school all these connects that start filling up the phone everyones offering for the college bound kid while then there were wire taps probably so here's it there's like this mid grade that throughout the year little things might happen like there's a mexican version (brickweed) or a lime green version cross bred version people doing these things in the woods growing a plant and figuring out the life with that little militias gangs the official marijuana breeds that's sort of like the more expensive stuff around campuses but actually it's mediocre the mixed strains with the cheaper stuff five dollar increments and no tax cash or other stuff cigs showmanship maybe even a little head ache so the ams sales like where to go different 'projects' old town fort hunt seqouyah belle view bucknell the hispanic ghetto and the use of the term spanish as the romantic correct saying so then there'...

so the asian styles the foods (different countries thai chinese vietnamese korean indonesian japanese) the celebrities actors comics so other parts hearing asians were known for making good grades in american public school being domesticated civil thinking of the stereotypes or traits um martial arts eastern philosophers hindu tibetan monks hot food hearing of the nazis studying some ancient asian history so breaking that wall of communication and showing the immersive spells of this like getting into characters and that spanning into america  um so for this month appreciating some asian culture other parts communism dictators um retail fashion toys video games cartoons and the military overseas different rules  so the honor family responsibility um precision long lasting economy cars the concessions of asian cuisines thai ice tea drunken noodles pad thai fried wontons dumplings bulgogi hot stone bibimbop but more immersing into it thinking of like mongolian cavaliers the west...

 other times listened about graduating high school paying my loan going awol to not be an amputee um so i am getting at i think the warning was about the quitting dynamic no more of the hobbies so what to do last night i made a little progress there was a movie i thought about seeing but i did not go to um so the reduced one i still found my self blogging even photos or the other one that got in my brain was painting the dungeons and dragons miniatures thoroughly enjoying that but then other parts seeing the crowds changing who still showed up  so the being a journalist when i got that certificate and too the huge reward a 10 grand bonus um the lure of the hmgs convention the buffets and the vacation when i recorded those thinking to help the family company in the background  so what to do recently hearing the news about trevor strnad dying and how i another was thought to get old but other parts um enjoying hobbies the little movies made the pictures posted the writings ...

 you want to be annoying ruin my life or experience continually attack me and conspire insults meanness cheat on me disturb me not listen then i don't want to be around you or anyone i am going to move on with my life stop following me leave me alone um i don't deserve to be treated like this i am going to continue with my life without you no more i am glad that is over um why no i have learned you are not worth it maybe karma will happen i don't care 

 ok so spring maybe get some of the rainy days the chill from the ac losing a layer no more long john thermals after winters in the rear view mirror the brace to get back to christmas again if possible the precursor to summer that small sweet spot in between seasons so the clip of the coffee at my parents house the image of the john frusciante and pool the past recedes a owners home desolate getting the sitcom episode feel the staged house the cast formal presentation after april um mother's day and approaching independence day fireworks barbeque bring my portable tripod to alexandria and get some recordings think of some fresh content the how to make home movies one  the out of it look no longer working or struggling to make it the accomplished image the comforts earned meanwhile the daily what to do during the commute trips the bucknell manor park my brother in the suburbs on cavalier dr the uphill top at 7 eleven and the office suite in bh so the two worlds alx and luray th...

  Kerouac’s 30 Rules for Writing Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for yr own joy Submissive to everything, open, listening Try never get drunk outside yr own house Be in love with yr life Something that you feel will find its own form Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind Blow as deep as you want to blow Write what you want bottomless from bottom of the mind The unspeakable visions of the individual No time for poetry but exactly what is Visionary tics shivering in the chest In tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you Remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition Like Proust be an old teahead of time Telling the true story of the world in interior monolog The jewel centre of interest is the eye within the eye Write in recollection and amazement for yourself Work from pithy middle eye out, swimming in language sea Accept loss forever Believe in the holy contour of life Struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact in mind Don’t think of wor...

 so vcu is a great school i think my few quips were one uva was better (because the getting accepted into entry was different criteria i heard of people requiring higher gpa grade point averages) i'd think of some of the fun of the school the artschool vibrancy that unstoppable and original presentation someone with an acoustic guitar in the park while there's smokers so which ever specific school responding back about where i did my incomplete undergrad so there's vtech with football but the state school richmond um the march madness i guess um thoughts on the ivy league depiction here writers poets painters bohemians townies small businesses all type of great works so the mix up um so the money spent on education um learning style unpointless settings skate to class walk to the river think of intellegencia names um i got a good experience and didn't have issues and avoiding getting misled about that  the creativity the unique the ways of the community in rva  all the ...

 so you can find that the pornographic content is so fun to watch to see like the taboo or wrong seeming so much like eye candy but then there's other part me i never made it as a porn star or different reasons for not being successful in sexual scenarios so maybe others suggestions too to not watch it for you'd turn into a weird pervert or maybe even as far as mental illness then other parts cuckolds guitars masturbation so some of this like i remember at night clubs before seeing like unbelievably sexy women and trans and it was like different reasons for unattainable or veering off and not pursuing (i'd get kicked out of the club or other stereotype lessons i learned) like the women being indescribable how attractive physically like the bodies the clothes the postures the modeling and facial expressions and features raven black hair jews platinum blonde white women red heads with asses hips different chest sizes so i have had the habit of watching phone porn like after m...

 the steroid effect of nicotine the strength from cigarettes that charm the charisma from lighting up one and the cancerous fun rolling out chats talks conversation pairing with caffeine or alcohol at times and the ceremony the buzz that stopped and aware of that business other smokers cocaine meth weed the dealers into the artistic and stylish life extra money for a zip up wardrobe with healthy antipsychotics that weight in the body system so how much left over money for savings or other expenses car payments being mindful of income and whats afforded so what habits to start other things enjoyed fastfood fill ups from the menu (add a nice quesarito or the groceries pickled goods) um there was stuff from walmart other things the records with a little extra money thinking through that social outings at the nightclubs  so that fix that habit and after that new ideas and ways morning keurig coffee with an option for cream or just black thinking of the money and what there is to d...

 ok so every so often there's a new famous person who i am referencing and doing a little simulcra (inferior comparable attempts such as formats like guitar film writing etc) so i thought man well i have a few lists of people but one being the guitarists who i saw in person (things like it's fun to play on stage it's fun to get drunk like a rockstar it's cool to think of the nerd smart behind like vinyls like a frozen soul other endearing parts) but it was how i thought the sonic youth picture was cool the guy lee ranaldo some of that being being alone being immature and maybe drugs like weed and psychedelia (remembering my friend burd b in middle school hanging out at his parents house his art stuff staged and his guitars or the social web then a little riff me wanting to be a drunk or him learning songs us going through puberty) and friendships and then it was abandoned properties the cool adventure but then other parts being comfortable or lazy being a fan other name...

 so i listened about different things like short cuts or best case scenarios (lots of hearsay throughout the years) so here's one i taught my self the music industry (see my 19yrs old album in a chinatown hotel or other performances) then there's like what i learned tattoos (lots of famous ones with that senses fail taking back sunday loud boyz dead milkmen nighthawks guns n roses) other parts complaints (inherent rules and walls not getting to the stage but other small victories online producing) so i had made albums and recordings but maybe police hearsay about that profession like being stopped (nightclubs not interested or people not wanting to start a group) and not making progress um basically all my projects done with my own effort (lots of strongarming and work but not maybe not getting that far the strict budget the punctuality at events) but as stated how far did that make it the conclusion military benefits or foolishness the point becoming pointless later other part...