blake uptin

 so i did see that the father in the catholic church can be a massive power like if you think oh i have to pay for every song and show up different answers about that and not going to how you got to that so a different choice and two another option hmm thinking other people could be a father figure so there was dr machmer and another robbie t so that being maybe single male power whether that's like the melting pot restaurant regularity or the africa peace corps money different things going on on that so gamblers making sense of anything the water essence from owners  another so there's the it was oh the bob dylan story so that being like like keith that falling under spells (heroine guitar hobo legend um) someone whose like this not possible figure and maybe that groups tricks on it when i ignorantly was fascinated with the jewish community (thinking things like world wars holocaust) so explaining it some um the term i told taking back sunday in a comment was like a dalai lam...

not quite the ball drop um the whole sports seasons so the right amount of warm clothes to wear a jacket a undershirt office clothes like church clothes button down work pants um that was from when my dad told me to dress nicer from when i was wearing different outfits hoody jeans sneakers  the halloween memories to today i guess being seasonal when there's like pumpkin flavors the material for now trick or treat smell my feet give me something good to eat a few segments of that like front royal loading up with candy the next day picking through or alexandria when there were different far away places like tanger outlets potomac mills  so i guess the coming of age thoughts when there was before intelligencia like lottery aspirations of different things and barriers different blocks so taking my own route production producing so when there'd be skimpy dressed women um when there'd be the continuing school seasons that bump of the year um each quarter of the journey so after t...

 so speaking lightly this one meaning maybe some back and forth and other parts to it like i think some quotes about things how i bent that like when salinger was done with someone he was done with them i sort of thought i didn't have problems with people but also at the same time not wanting to go down some loops so that counter um not barking on the confrontational part i was mostly also other parts the audience or a pen name things i learned and that also positive and negative being typecast so now people presuming things about me like a difficult person see the like military rules or other things people judging and concluding before hand so i go there and then different places the surveys on receipts and being outcast isolated lots of those like producing and then others the drugs or other things said differently each time so no complaints and  college um vets or moles or blues um how social different suppositions like all the stereotypes i dealt with and peoples unkindnes...

 here's some of the stops to why you can't militarize in america: so you can't kill someone because you'll go be hospitalized and then after hospitalization your own life will be in danger such as healthcare threats drug addiction malpractice errors lots of that if you become infantry (the killing job) you'll be told you have no skills and are stranded after that so death by attrition what can you can on for living the loop of the legal so lawyers jailing military and veterans (two big tactics medical doctors and attorney phd's) so you are taunted and teased and then unable to respond you're as stated defenseless the doctor can use communism and other powers to alienate you and have suicide wards while there's daily memorial day actions like the muslim president with joe biden the white  guy people will come after your loved ones and you don't have time to take care of yourself or a partner so that part um  blackmail and trades barter bargains um bri...

 ok so here is where i am now i do not want (actually this was mostly non negotiable never wanting a tattoo the unmostly part being like insurance or screws getting turned) i was maybe stupified to be okay with the retirement i was happy to be out of the unit those stresses um i thought i could always be understanding like even if people i knew (this was a semi big issue) were with the woman i thought to wed the adultery being hurtful um so where was i now um i think the term was showing that being hurtful or upsetting in a way but unavoidable and unchangeable but it was um though i ironically watched porn so um i was now the short hand of just thinking jd salinger because the story of the people i could walk to from where i lived in elementary school that childhood house and those long term people like thinking you can't break va rules you'll get caught that as a anchor and different rationals for that reasoning like accept the money and don't buck the system with like hea...

so this past fredericksburg trip some maybe reveals the teenage celebs (in hindsight some of this is sort of like kid porn like not sexually i mean like these people are still young that dynamic like living with your parents or being given a chance and like the parts to that um then later another part the black inclusion america has blacks too not to say something incorrect and the media can show that as a endearing trait in some stereotypes) were pretty dudes older um who came back for more um the terms on that what i suspected for a while was merchant marines maybe access to social work or voc rehab and usmc like older and maybe i'd assume some with exposure to pharmacies and the lump of 'world war' also unknown to be maybe sex addicts here and their explanation to that unoffensively hiv the needle and self suffiency crowds and beat up dudes she / her pronoun  so the spirit of it the but i didn't catch everyone going on each stomping having some meaning amputees drunk...

 so here's some of what happened i had my childhood where one story i said was where with american poverty (young nuclear families with issues like unemployment or threats out there predator cops and predator drug names both playing their cards) politics can affect that after the military what next but so in more teenage years and early adulthood so that i had smoked not to hurt feelings about that but so i met many people from school who had dealt with drugs and learning that lesson military families and violence pushers training and conditioning how to survive so at the time i thought it was no big deal just go the other way but then um later stops and also it can get out of control and then things like stereotypes no one will help even my own parents telling me that it's a lost cause with the drug businesses money laundering and you sort of can't win under their roof and rules following federal punishment terms or other things so hmm i joined the military and got complet...

 so another prophecy i thought i may eventually have some of my belongings gone maybe paying off invisible debts like if my well respected parents leave some holes of social contracts um fancy talk but um i thought i may have to donate a lot some day and keep going and another was basing this off the people i saw living near me i didn't like look in their windows but you can sort of tell whose lived there for twenty plus years and how i'd intend to do that same with losing something i thought a answer i don't do would be like a casino or another being catholic collection things working out and not being irritated um i had donated before  so something i see at a thrift store it can have this like difficult part to it like i'm cash firm and what my choices are and then a few times spilling into hoarding of goods so i could see something there that seems like a pseudo investment i remember one after seeing f scott fitzgerald may had been video graphed or other terms parodi...

 so i thought things may change in the future and i also thought some of my predictions have came true despite some also being able to be redirected my mom and dad their good future with joy and passion and others um a client being like a belle view realty person a common background with usmc so here's some of my thoughts of what could happen the internet could go away sort of thinking like my dad with his mind paying services that developped into the giant that is todays computer platforms roku video game consoles at home smart phones another reason was not accessing things so like spoiled milk it being discontinued with lessons from the story before so seeing that i could see the technology changes while story telling other things going on um the mennonites the amish the white race um secrets and wormholes other things i didn't rationalize all the way through just what triggered it was my concern for my uploaded portfolio backed up  some sort of buffalo springfield neil youn...

i think my reaffirmed conclusion was stick to people i trust don't let that wedge between my parents so still some effort with the hobbies but not being mislead and additionally not being irritated so no replies and covering my own ass so i don't get destroyed so creating material unillegally or not being stalked and others well there was the aholes the others the muslims unfiltered so the picture of the guys in bucknell buy a house and settle down help my parents and within reason not have issues with projects writing painting videos miniatures hobbies audio video producing photography socializing  so this story i hear or have descriptions for mental illness then gray areas or how i can do what i was doing or the courses set still think of pkd despite other things like fake news  so today we went to el paso off the highway i thought about projects with my mom um i had enchiladas and rice and beans and mentioned collab capabilities two name drops that i've said on this befo...

 so was that actually my material um the writing prompt from the tenured professor when i was going to write this magnificent book a best seller everything you can think of inspirational um pulp so that whole big book that i actually did write so there was a usps box full of hand written books for the source material for my some influences um catcher in the rye jd salinger but difficult parts like the whole moral of the story or english things um from one point to the next so frederich douglas getting out of work or pseudo slavery another um bob dylan so condensed highlighted um the youth um dreaming so it was this scrappy underdog thing of high levels of love longing and the whole supplies on hand sea biscuit the romantic poets more citations and maybe some of it's scope being the 18 year old to school like this side of paradise i'd think of older peoples stuff the norman rockwell paintings john lennon being alive jfk speeches and memories the fill ins on the rolling stones th...

so there's the phone for messages and outgoing calls immersive like hallucinations or fantasies the 5e artwork is awesome the map to explore different lands i guess driving places interactions with other characters socializing experience points and rewards leveling up getting wiser role playing game thinking of simulcra whichever legend to emulate  new missions which quest to complete  the housing and saves  is it still just pointless in the end? is it a waste of time or is it productive and positive stimulus  another would be like watching a good movie studying those that break between the game and days um the line between the experience and reality like going through vintage westerns or new releases too in theatres however that works the gross sales and propaganda releases  another different one would be the phenomena from slots like the slot machines at the casino that stupor inducing high that rush that flow of dopamine and endorphins or the good feelings to...

 so not necessarily sexual longing but maybe the term girl crazy mind bending estrangement so i was in germany and listened to the fearless album on cd in the library cd player and was seeing enjoyment um other stuff too the science fiction character harpies for d&d um when i was built up and even nervous around girls um preopenly talking about sex or lgbtq thoughts not having had a female sibling having had a brother my older sibling um the time so smoking cigs at jobs and what that lead to getting driven places and all types of tobacco fueling teenage fun and before and after life um getting through school  so the land a regional call like atlantic oceans the record scratching and hissing and popping um the scenary and scenario um the footpath the train transportation the agrandisement of charm potions and fragrances maddening deafening losing touch with reality from the gamers room the dice rolls the snacks and beverages the attunement to the environment other legends a...

so here's who i determined were and are the industry leaders such as in person response and some markers of fame though i later learned there can be so many different audiences the club music the arena buskers all types of that stuff and that's also what i focused more on music and beer occasionally other stuff scotch or um made it back safe everytime metro access and uber occasionally cabs   carlos mencia saw him was censored um in the circuit suprisingly it was on fort belvoir  joe rogan saw him his interviews on his channel are cool um knows a lot is pro  dave chappelle missed him asked around saw tickets were $500 um thought he was good some things i didn't know initially like interracial or other stuff that surfaced jim gaffigan saw him um was subtle and somewhat charming a good time other living names that seem still relevant saw adam sandler for years um the other craig robinson he showed up in some movies when i was in high school and i couldn't forget him th...